It is time for a change. A big one.
I've lived in Nashville for almost 17 years (16 years, 7 months and 8 days to be exact). Wow, was Nashville different in 2001. I was different, too. I had left home for the first time, broken up with my fiance, and moved to the big city where all my dreams were going to come true... or where I could at least "make a living doing music," I thought. Because I certainly wasn't going to be a high school teacher or a weather girl (two of my ill-fated college trajectories). No, I was going to be a singer for a living! Cut to a decade and a half later, and I find myself... disenchanted. I had long given up on the idea of becoming the next Shania Twain, and I didn't have the give-a-damn to bend over backwards for publishers, but I DID find a way to "make a living doing music." I built a business playing acoustic cover shows every weekend. I was well-traveled, in demand and getting paid well. And I was exhausted. I had no time or energy for writing. I didn't know where I wanted my career to go, and was beginning to resent music in general. This was NOT the way I wanted to feel about music. What use to be a cathartic outlet and a source of joy for me was making me feel like a hamster in a run-away wheel. When you're self-employed, there is no paid time off or company-supplied health insurance... Somebody's gotta keep the machine running. And in a one-woman show, that somebody was me.
So after much soul-searching and praying, I decided I needed an environment where I could rest, reconnect with my creative place, and wait for a new path to reveal itself. And it was obvious that place needed to be a location other than Nashville. Without going into the whole process of how I chose my destination, I'll just say that I needed a COMPLETELY different setting... So here I find myself in TAOS, NEW MEXICO. I have no plans to book any gigs or release new music for at least a year. I am here for the peace, the healing, and for new experiences, new perspective. I'll let you know what's next when I know. But I'm okay with not knowing. I'm just letting it unfold.